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I'm gonna take back what I said about Cancer guys. I found one that isn't all clingy. In fact, it seems that all he cares about is sex. Lovely. But, through him I did have my first experience with a girl. So, yay I guess. The thing is is that she's "straight" and I'm not sure if she really digs me. I don't know if I really dig her either. She's cool and all, but I don't know. I guess we'll see what happens with that.

I'm realizing that my really big crushes are just so ridiculous! My new crush lives in Canada! So yeah, realistically, I can't be with him. Yet I find myself thinkin' about the guy all the time.

Hmmmmm, what else is new with me? That's about it really. Everything else is just random stuff I post on twitter and facebook. I'm gonna try to update this more often though. Maybe once a week or somethin'. Ta for now!

This Is My Heart:

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My second date with the anime virgin didn't go too well. Things were moving way too fast for my liking. Oh well.

Every one is saying that I need to go to college. Too bad every time I seriously consider it I end up having an emotional breakdown. I've always been the slow kid in the class. During my time in school I didn't have a passing grade since elementary school. So, in a way, I only have a grade school education. Something tells me that I'm not gonna make it through college. Plus, it'd suck having all these youngins I don't know look at me, the old fart in the room, as dumb and pathetic. It's bad enough that my friends and family see me that way, though they'd never admit it.

What's fucked up is that I look down on most of the "poor and uncultured" people that live in the area, even though that's how I'm living and will continue on living. I'd like to think I'm better because I'm not on drugs an I didn't get knocked up. Though, that would make me a natural born loser instead of becoming one because of unfortunate circumstanses.

I'm done for now. Ta.

To his left, on a bed that seemed to stretch miles long, lay a naked fair-skinned male. He realized then he was in the Fire Lord's bed. Even stranger was the nude body of his fiance at his right.

"Wow..." The airbender thought to himself, "It really wasn't a dream!"

The heat emanating from Zuko's body overpowered the room. With a flick of his wrist, the Avatar airbended the window open.

"Thanks Aang. I was just about to ask you to get some air in here." A groggy Katara mumbled, her eyes still closed.

Aang slid down and rested his head on his hand, propping himself up on his elbow. "You should get back to sleep. The moon is still out." He lightly kissed his wife-to-be.

Katara turned over as Aang wrapped his arms around her, drawing her close in a spooning manner. Zuko followed suit lazily wrapping is arms around Aang, lightly kissing the Airbender's shoulder.

"Ugh..." Aang quietly grumbled, "Why do Firebenders have to be so hot?!"

Katara chuckled at the double entente. "Just deal with it for now. The sun will be up soon. He'll be awake before you know it."

The exhausted Avatar fell fast asleep despite the mild discomfort. He would need all the rest in the world to deal with all the controversy that lay ahead of him.

This Is My Heart:

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